Wednesday, February 27, 2008
i've had it with all this
i've been taking in what i can
i've been trying to get what i can
but i guess since i dont really agree with you lot of people
i dont get any juice?
well think again
this is what i think
read it and repent
everyone is freaking wrong but you people?
who the freaking hell do you think you people are?
just cause people know people doesnt mean people can force their answer, thinking on people.
and whoever doesnt go with one of you,
the whole lot of you have to go against that one?
are you guys brainless that cant think on your own?
condemn me all you want
but i have had it with you people condemning people i care about
who are you to do that?
do you know anyone of them well enough to do this?
no one disses her but me
no one of you have the bloody freaking right to do any of that
just coz you people have a group is big enough that i cant handle?
so what if you have
you think quantity provides quality?
you all think you know what friendship is
you all think you know what love is?
yeah it's different from people to people.
but what gives you the right to decide for others.
all you know is badmouthing people
all you people know is to go with majority
and so what if you people are the majority
you people spread all this negative vibes like wild fire
gossip around what that is not
bloody hell
just coz someone doesnt like someone
you people have to all agree that the person must be the culprit
or that the person should not come
i should have brought the person
i should have made you people regret your words
choke on them as you people eat your food
because at the end the only one who minds that person were you people
say you're doing this coz of 2 reasons?
well think again
you didnt even bloody reply to one of them bloody reasons you mentioned
all you people know is to create distance in people
give people the wrong impression
make unnecessary issues
bring hurt to people
comdemn people without knowing them
well then
condemn me as well because i couldnt be bothered with you people
i still carry the neoprint in my wallet
but i guess it's just and will only be a memory of the past
wishing;
01:44
Thursday, February 21, 2008
i was blog hopping
and i chance upon weeling's blog
and this was in one of her entries
which i find it very true i guess
i wish
ever wished you could turn back time?
go back to the time where you were so happy
and that there is nth in the world
that you would change with for that happiness
where the little things makes u grin the whole day..
where you are really smiling from your heart..
wishing;
22:16
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
life is about trial and error
maybe experimenting
perhaps we ourselves as human beings are born hypocrites
every single one of us
we go around saying
we dont gamble, drink or smoke
saying no to drugs either
yet we gamble in our decisions of life
taking risk that are sometimes beyond us
we drink away every detail that distress us
smoking away every problem that we face
and at the end of the day
addicted to the drugs of every emotion
tell me the logic in that
i'll give it one more try
and hope for the better
wishing;
11:16
Thursday, February 14, 2008
life hasnt changed when i am back
if life hasnt changed
then i shall be the one who shall
all i need
i have
just whether i want to do it
wishing;
11:21
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
a layer of dust lies on my floor
as i first walk in
it feels like i first step into my new place
new room
new floor
rasQ sniffs the place out
asthough she knew not this place
i like the sensation
no matter how much i had stayed here
just stepping in
and feel that unused feeling on my sole
it feels good
though i sit on my bean bag
feeling the dirt that was collected from the past 1 week
i dont mind it at all
feeling my laptop for the first time in 1 week
i like it
it's like a whole new world
in just 10 days
i hope it stays that way
children are cheering outside
under the hot 4pm sun
having fun
it's like a whole new place
it's great to have gone home and back
i feel like i'm starting life anew
though it's the same old worlk that i'm living in
wishing;
15:58
Sunday, February 03, 2008
to whoever it maybe for
i doubt you'll come here
but if you do
good for me
if others do
and you know who am i talking to
tell that person
because i'm hurt so much
i couldnt even care about whether i'm doing right or wrong
i decided
i'm not bringing my laptop
i refuse to bring my laptop
i rather cut of all my connections here
i rather leave my troubles here
and have a peaceful chinese new year
with people that actually cares for me
even jade can tell me to message her before i leave
what about you
you have something to tell me only after i message?
it really shows where was i standing
you can make me send you off at 6am in the morning
when i'm all the way up at woodlands
but nothing from you when i'm going?
maybe there was care and concern in both people
but i'm sorry i feel nothing from you
i rather message jade
i wish i wasnt there in town this afternoon
i shouldnt have even bothered to come down
i should have just stay at home and spend my time with rasQ
then to smile nothing to the world
i've decided
i will harden myself
i will prevent me from getting hurt again and again
and i will succeed
because i will have time to forget
i will miss rasQ
so very much
wishing;
04:00
Friday, February 01, 2008
i guess it's true what people say about time
time tears people arpart
argument is the same old same old again
it's tiring
i dont feel like working tomorrow
i dont feel like seeing you tomorrow
yet now i have people having no time for me
jia yan, minjia
they are all the same
everything else is more important
or easily replaces what we once have
10 days is not long
yet it's not that short
but no one even bothered with me
writing this makes me cry
but it's not worth it for any of them
it's not like anyone would even know i'm gone from town
i wish i'm gone and never back
coz if it doesnt make a difference
then what's the point of being existence
i wish time stickes at march 07 and never moved
wishing;
14:37