Tuesday, October 30, 2007
the more i read the more i'm
doesnt make a difference
i'm deciding if i wanna even go to work tomorrow
sometimes i think about it
i just wanna cry
i just wanna let everything out
i just wanna forget about everything
i just wanna drop everything
but i cant
i'm a freaking good for nothing coward that is scared of every darn thing that might happen from my actions because of the dumb consequences that might follow from everything in which that i do which would not only affect others or anything surrounding me but also me thus because of these i dare not face any of these.
i wanna run
run away from everything
i damn hate being alone
finally i'm able to enter blogger
i finally found some where to put my thoughts
anyway before i do that
i found a rabbit on sunday
and i nearly lost rasQ again
currently the rabbit is living in my room when i'm out
he gets to stay in the living room at night
i need to keep rasQ away from him
just to let my faithful readers know
if i have any
my life is screwed
i'm in a mess
everything is screwed up
i guess i should be happy that i'm on holidays next week
i wanna work
work my ass off
work till i'm numb
work till i cant do any more damage
i'm thinking everyday
when i'm not working
i'll stay at home and accompany rasQ
i guess at the end of the day
my presence is only enough to accompany my rasQ
Monday, October 22, 2007
i've negleting my blog quite a lot recently...
i dont seem to have the motivation to blog...
it doesnt really matter...
my blog doesnt seem to have much visitors anyway...
i guess i could always turn it to a private blog...
or just close it down...
i couldnt be bothered with anything...
went for jun li's birthday celebration yesterday...
brought rasQ there...
her cookie was seriously after my rasQ...
rasQ didnt like...
she tries to bite cookie...
but i'm sleepy...
i just wanna sleep...
and get this day over...
and done with...
i'm too tired to care about anything else...
Monday, October 15, 2007
i donno what i can say to make things better.
i donno what i can do to make things better.
but to say i'm sorry
i truly am
my words hurt
and i know you're hurt
i played my cards too hard
asking for forgiveness isnt my forte
thus i cannot put my words into proper terms
but to ask for your forgiveness
to let me amend what i have done wrong
a chance for this bond to grow stronger
dont walk away from what we once hold dear
dont walk away now
not after what we went through
a chance to change who i am
a chance to make it better
i promise i will if i can gain back what i unknowingly gambled on
Thursday, October 04, 2007
what binds them?
friends and relationship,
creating a beautiful gem.
the process is easy and simple,
a little bit of this, a little bit of that.
heart mind and body of nimble,
add some ingredients and wonders met.
all we need is a little trust,
add it with a little faith.
give or take, it's a must.
i know because i gave.
i guess the time is this,
when faith and trust is going none.
there are hits and miss,
but lets make confusions gone.
we need to build on it,
to lengthen and make it strong.
lets do it bit by bit,
we can make it long.