Tuesday, July 31, 2007
okay i'm back...
gonna blog a little before i sleep...
i wanna sleep early...
haha...
be a good girl...
i came home after school...
and had the hock of my life...
lol...
okay...
more like day...
i saw pukes on the floor...
rasQ puked...
i was like...
omg...
are you okay...
but she was all jumping for joy coz she missed me...
and also coz she was stuck at home alone the entire day...
anyway...
i kinda slept in the emo corner...
woken up by rasQ and my dad calling...
zZz...
they keep on waking me up...
abuse!!!
dont let me sleep...
lol...
anyway after dinner...
rasQ yi jiao ta liang chuan x)
she caught the attention of 2 dogs...
and practically drove them mad...
lol...
my rasQ is a dog magnet x)
overall she had fun playing...
and now she is snuggling comfortably on my blanky...
i'm so gonna steal that away from her...
lol...
my entry is so dedicated to my dog....
haha...
coz i have nothing to comment about other issues...
lalalalala~
good night world...
sleep tight...
wishing;
22:19
i wanna sleep!!!
*yawn*
haha...
nevermind...
i have tomorrow to sleep in....
yay...
since tomorrow is a break for me...
anyway...
had history today...
spend most of my time rotting thought i did my work...
haha...
jia yan kept on asking if i'm alright during the second meeting -.-
hello...
like i'm freaking fine...
i'm not the only one hyper and lame alright...
joshua was super lame this morning as well...
haha...
anyway i got new songs from my friend...
haha...
not bad ones...
lol...
waiting for rj to be released...
and also for the rest to end...
haha...
so while waiting...
what should i do???
hmmm...
lol...
donno....
[zee says...
i know what i'm doing is bound to get me questions...
quaries...
problems...
but i cant be bothered by it...
so much for outings...
not that i'm angry at what i heard...
sometimes...
it's easier to get answers from the source...
dont you think so???]
wishing;
15:13
Monday, July 30, 2007
you know...
here i am thinking...
or rather...
was...
but it's still floating on my mind now...
even as i'm listening to music...
i was blog hopping...
and i swear...
i really swear...
if i was to ever see your name there...
i'm so going to get jealous there...
i cant believe i'll ever get jealous...
i cant believe it'll ever be over something so small...
i cant believe it'll be over something like this...
and then again...
if i see your name there...
i know something...
or rather i will think something...
nevermind...
off to something i kind of like when i was searching for poems
Can Friends Be More And Stay Friends- Sublime Clouds
Three pairs of feet kicking through the sand,
Three blithe forms walking hand in hand.
Three wide smiles stretching from ear to ear,
Three mirthful voices that all around can hear.
But can friends be more, and stay friends?
Waves lapping bodies as they swim in the blue,
Friendship reverberating genuine and true.
Sitting in the twilight and the colors of the sun,
Two look at each other thinking 'They could be the one.'
But can friends be more, and stay friends?
She decides to take the moment and give a little peck,
He however freezes and then runs back to the deck.
Crushed and hurt and broken she begins to cry,
While he stands alone and shaken, scarlet red and shy.
But can friends be more, and stay friends?
'Why, oh why? ' he ponders as he starts to feel queasy,
'What am I afraid of that makes me so uneasy?
'The thing indeed that made him stop the girl from going further,
Was the fear that it may one day end and he would surely hurt her.
But can friends be more, and stay friends?
'I don't want to lose her, ' thought the boy who stomped and cussed,
'And time might weaken passion and the closer bonds between us.
'And so he went, reassured that he could make things right,
Went to the girl he faced and embraced her long and tight.
But can friends be more, and stay friends?
He spoke to her and told her that he knew from recent past,
That they were still to young and would not be able to last.
He told that she was right for him in every single way,
But time was key in what she wanted or else they would pay.
But can friends be more, and stay friends?
And finally he said that he knew she wouldn't understand,
But he wants to make things happen, but only while they can.
'So please, oh please just wait because we don't need things to end,
And I believe along with time that we can be more, AND friends.'
wishing;
14:28
Friday, July 27, 2007
i'm tired...
mentally tired...
drained...
i just spend the last 30 minutes crying...
i guess now i know partly the reason why i'm acting weird this few weeks...
the tears finally just flow...
and so easily...
it started with just me picking up a card...
it was good to let it all out i guess...
or atleast half of it...
i've been feeling like crying since wednesday after work...
i didnt...
i could have...
but the trigger wasnt strong enough...
i had the feeling again today...
once in school...
the other on the way to amk for dinner...
and finally it's out...
i'm tired now...
i just wanna sleep...
0607
i miss you so much...
i just stared at your picture...
and read your belongings...
and i just sat there crying...
i'll continue crying...
until i find a reason not to...
wishing;
23:05
i need to wait for my quiz evaluation and rj to be opened...
since i'm most likely going home on my own...
i'll just take my own sweet time...
no point rushing i guess...
so here i am blogging...
used final cut pro today...
like last week...
except that this time we were the editors...
so did some amateur editing...
had some great ideas which varian liked...
but other then that...
it was a little too choppy...
oh well...
okay...
i'm going off alone...
not surprising...
unless i wanna wait for jia yan...
i guess today i felt better after talking to joshua...
atleast someone is there...
but after that...
or rather now i dont...
oh well...
walking to school with jin yan and joshua was fun in the morning as well...
it beats walking to school alone...
or being left alone...
maybe i'll wait for jia yan...
i dont wanna walk to the mrt station alone...
not these few days...
wishing;
15:52
i donno why i came to blogger anyway???
i just feel like i should be blogging...
it's like forever since i last blogged...
but i dont have anything to blog about...
it's like you wanna blog...
but you cant blog...
understandable???
it's an ironic situation...
i'm always like that...
oh well...
i guess i'm off to bed already...
the train ride home was mentally frustrating...
i'm mentally drained...
wishing;
00:37
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
it's exactly like some movie...
but it doesnt matter...
guess what happened when i showered this morning...
it's exactly like in the movies...
when you have the water on your face...
sliding down your body...
feeling the warm water....
that's when it hit me...
flash backs of 031002...
the events that happened...
that lingers in my memories...
i guess at the end of the day...
i'm still wondering why did she know it before me???
how is it that she knows what had happen before i did...
it wasnt as if they were that close...
i still remember most of what had happened...
how the time there seem to slowed down...
dragged...
as if someone pressed slowdown on the player of life...
after school...
tuition...
the cab...
cab fare...
the expressions...
the numbnesss...
i wonder why of all the days would i have this scene flashed in my mind...
i wonder what it means...
i wonder...
wishing;
08:46
Monday, July 23, 2007
hmmm...
it looks like it's going to rain soon...
so no point going home then cycled back...
another accident might happen...
haha...
so i'm here at the canteen blogging...
tell you a funnie thing that happen this morning...
i brought rasQ out for a walk...
and she saw another dog there too...
then they were playing...
happy for her ^^
she started chasing the dog when i hit the hold button...
so she fell...
haha...
my poor rasQ so ke lian...
anyway today is the last day of my 3rd uts...
haha...
happy me...
LOL...
i'm hungwy...
wait...
actually i'm not...
was hungwy
then ate something...
so basically now mouth itchy only...
bad...
haha...
oh well...
tomorrow shall not eat that much then...
and considering that i have work...
like double wow...
oh yeah i need to go get something later...
hmmm...
jin yan called already...
i'm off to find them at the sports complex...
haha...
update more when i reach...
wishing;
17:47
Sunday, July 22, 2007
i came to blog...
but i've been staring at create post site for 10 minutes...
haha...
and i havent decided on what to write about...
hmmm...
as usual...
rasQ refused to let me sleep pass 10 ish...
totally woke me up at 9++
then at 10 again after she came back from her walk...
haiz...
had 6 hours plus of sleep only!!!
zZz...
anyway brought rasQ to run at the field...
she totally ran to her hearts content...
played with water...
chasing bugs...
running around...
hopping around...
haha...
then she had a reshower when she came back...
lol...
anyway...
i'm wondering if i should go out later...
feel like going out to buy things...
feel like going pool as well...
haha...
a lot of craving...
LOL...
see what's the plan later then...
wishing;
13:47
Friday, July 20, 2007
argh!!!
cant believe i overslept today...
and there's dma classes and ut...
zZz...
no choice then...
had to cab to school...
bye bye 6 dollars =(
anyway...
yesterday was fun at work...
but i had to rot at school till 5...
zZz...
fell asleep on the train...
thank goodness i woke up just on time to hear orchard mrt...
haha...
saw my bleach yesterday after shower...
and i'm still 1 episode behind...
oh well...
after school then...
doubt i'm going for training later...
i wanna go home and sleep...
need to bring rasQ out too...
and lastly...
wash the clothes...
haha...
if not tomorrow i have nothing to wear to work...
haha...
oh yeah...
jia yan was freaking me out yesterday...
haha...
oh well...
be right back with more news later...
wishing;
08:42
Thursday, July 19, 2007
oh yeah...
i forgot to mention tuesday was cymon's birthday...
happy birthday dude!!!
didnt really celebrate his birthday with him on tuesday...
coz dad wasnt around...
and i was working...
so we had sort of a celebration dinner on sunday...
haha...
yesterday i kinda woke up rather early...
thanks to rasQ -.-
she kept on pouncing on me at 9++
she gave up after awhile...
and continue pouncing on me again at 10++ -.-
i brought her out during the rain...
let her off in the rain...
she was damn happy...
ran and ran and ran...
one incident though...
she nearly ran onto a lamp post...
but other then that she was rather happy =)
got her a shower before heading out to meet debbie...
and can you believe it???
i was being nice and washed the shower area yesterday...
haha...
had lunch with debbie at tpy central...
miss her...
haha...
we went mac to rot and lame around...
after that i went to town for work and she went back to school for tennis...
work was boring in the beginning...
then after that things started to get better...
haha....
aka...
lame with jade x)
you're a bimbo...
you're an airhead...
and i just realise something...
put together, we're bimbotic airheads...
LOL...
had a nice sleep this morning...
it was cold and all so rasQ didnt pounce on me...
rather i was the one who woke her up since she was sleeping on me...
haha...
class was class...
haha...
end of story x)
wishing;
14:01
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
the back of my leg hurts...
not coz i cycled and i'm tired...
but rather it hurts coz my pedal hit me hard yesterday while walking with my bike...
it still hurts today...
and i'm working later -.-
anyway...
cycling definitely does help when you're not in the mood...
cycled to yishun for dinner yesterday...
ate at chong pang...
it was cheap but not that nice...
oh well...
we cant have both right???
haha...
anyway...
cycled home after buying fruits...
duku langsat!!!
yay...
oh yeah...
i nearly skidded off yesterday...
tried to go uphill...
a steep one...
didnt manage...
haha...
luckily i didnt fall...
anyway...
no school tomorrow...
meeting debbie for lunch...
okay...
i'm off to my rj...
wishing;
15:31
Monday, July 16, 2007
life isnt a bed of roses...
life would not go your way...
life would not bow to anyone...
life listens to no one...
life tends to go the other way...
compared to what we all want...
it's like a game of roulette...
it stops when ever it wants to stop...
it follows what it has...
even if you were to cheat your way in roulette...
one day you'll eventually get caught...
no matter what...
how...
or when...
no one cheats on life...
like no one cheats on death...
some random shit...
haha...
i just needed to write something since my head hurts like hell...
it gets better after writing...
i'm tired i guess...
oh well...
i certainly need distractions in life...
lots of them...
i dont have a line on others...
but others have a line on me...
wishing;
17:18
Sunday, July 15, 2007
here i am wondering...
after doing a little blog hopping...
wonder what happens if i change my blog address???
who would know???
or rather...
how long does it take before people ask???
or rather...
how long does it take before people noticed there is no longer such an address???
i guess it would be interesting to find out the answer...
yet the result may have a mixture of feelings...
sometimes...
knowing there maybe such an outcome...
i wonder why do i even wanna have a go at it???
curiosity perhaps...
or maybe i just wanna prove myself wrong...
but at the end of the day...
curiosity kills the cat...
i wonder...
do i get killed by curiosity first???
or do i kill curiosity???
koig te ase ad nt koig te ase den mk a dfeec
nwn h nwr n o nwn h nwr ost ae ifrne
bcue a te ed o te dy
eas t h n f h a
te coc i nt mn
h hie s o ie
lets see if curiosity really kills the cat...
wishing;
16:56
Friday, July 13, 2007
hungwy hungwy hungwy!!!
i shall go grab a bite as soon as michelle is done...
haha...
not working today!!!
go home and sleep later...
shall go makan and lame around first...
LOL...
i think being hungry is making me high...
lol...
oh well...
anyway....
past few days were lame and funnie i guess...
haha...
shall not elaborte on it anymore...
past is past...
haha....
oh my...
i'm gonna complain once more...
i'm hungry...
seriously...
shall go makan...
update more later???
maybe tonight or tomorrow before work...
wishing;
17:09
Thursday, July 12, 2007
i think i'm a person who can be easily contented???
haha...
and i also think that i'm going to get fast fast at this rate...
haha...
my daddy went kL...
bought back my favourite beef noodles =)
and guess what...
i'm eating it now ^^
eat and type...
eat and drink...
haha...
i was like half dead...
maybe 3 quarter dead when i got home...
fell asleep on the way back...
took a quick look at what he bought back...
and i'm alive...
LOL...
anyway...
i still have 2 essays to write that need to be submitted by 13 and 14 respectively...
i still have time...
i think...
lol...
having art criticism and analysis tomorrow...
then work...
hmmm....
busy busy busy x)
wishing;
01:48
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
hmmm...
had history of arts yesterday...
and as usual migraines are getting to me...
oh well...
couldnt be bothered by it anymore...
wen down with jin yan michelle sean joshua and norman for breakfast/lunch...
after that spend the 2nd break out with jia yan and michelle...
those two gang up against me as usual -.-
michelle dragged sean down as well...
lame and laughed our ass off...
went for another conservation talk after school...
this time i was the one who booked the seats...
i booked the whole row ^^
then jin yan say he not coming -.-
haha...
oh well...
there was michelle sean me jia yan joyce and joyce's friend...
jia yan and michelle came after ut...
noisy bunch x))
anyway...
went for dinner with michelle jia yan sean and jin yan...
and all of the gang up against me -.-
zZz...
no comments...
as usual....
lame and laughed our ass off...
jia yan came over after dinner...
suppose to study -.-
but didnt...
LOL...
but it was fun talking to jia yan...
it's been awhile since we done that...
damn tired so i fell asleep in front of my com...
haha...
oh well...
didnt make it for my games this morning...
oh well...
i got about one hour...
wonder if i should go cycling...
or just spend that one hour doing my essays...
oh yeah...
rj questions are out...
anyway i'm working tonight...
but i dont have to hand in my essays till friday...
hmmm...
wishing;
12:31
Monday, July 09, 2007
i had my train of thoughts on my way home...
but after doing my rj...
and watching television...
the suite like of zack and cody...
but the main points are more or less here...
everyone dreams of being happy...
everyone tries to achieve happiness...
all people do is for happiness...
but some dont deserve to be happy...
either because they made it that way...
or they're just not meant to be happy...
i'm one of them...
what about you???
wishing;
21:17
Sunday, July 08, 2007
hmmm...
jiayan says i'm not fun to hang out with -.-
as in i'm way too predictable...
so not much fun...
zZz...
slept till 130 yesterday...
slack around at home before heading for work...
work was...
well...
okay i guess...
i'm lazy to complain...
hit target again...
so we get supper...
haha...
full course!!!
main desert and drinks...
today...
i was waken by jia yan -.-
that girl call me at 11 -.-
and i slept at 4++
was doing my essay...
and it's still not done yet...
3 more questions to go...
i'm cooking tonight...
spinach...
ladies finger...
old cucumber soup...
potato and chicken soup...
haha...
i think i'm making a habit of cooking on sunday...
to redeem myself for not eating in on weekdays x)
[zee says
predictable or unpredictable???
should i change???
is it for the better???]
wishing;
14:47
Saturday, July 07, 2007
morning!!!
i just woke up like an hour ago...
haha...
had work yesterday...
so that explains why i'm up only at this hour...
haha...
yesterday seems to have a lot of ex phs-ians at work...
haha...
i saw patrick yiyong and gang...
after that the gang came to celebrate brenda's birthday...
havnt seen them for a long long time...
so it was seriously great to see them all...
haha...
we so have to do this more often...
when i'm not working that is..
haha...
not forgetting the fun in the afternoon...
haha...
went to the airport with joyce...
chat...
lamed...
laugh..
and had fun!!!
gotta do that more often too...
after airport we went back to town...
popped by kino before work...
hmm...
my dad's gonna complain i work too much soon...
haha...
wishing;
14:22
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
today is like only the 4th of july...
seems like so many things has happened...
feels like a hell long time since i last blogged...
hmmm...
just didnt have the motivation to blog...
thats all...
even now i dont know what to blog about...
so why the hell did i even come to blogger...
no idea...
think i'm going outwith michelle later...
then head for work...
i need distractions in life...
i'm freaking jumpy this few days...
maybe it's coz the day is coming...
why am i so easily affected...
it's been awhile hasnt it???
it's not like it just happened the last 1 or 2....
i am so weak...
this is so not me...
it always happened around this time...
damn it...
oh well...
emotion reeks...
i wanna be uncaring...
uninterested...
rather i just don wanna feel anything at all...
wishing;
10:23
Sunday, July 01, 2007
is this how we talk???
or are we that not understanding of one another...
i should learn to trust and believe again...
it's the right thing to do...
this is what i want to do...
i guess there's a lot more i need to learn...
and there's a lot more i shouldnt care...
it's not worth my care and concern...
neither is it worth my time...
remind me next time...
of what to beware...
for example...
what happened recently...
i guess most of the time i'm still living in the past...
looking forward to the future...
yet not drifting from the past...
selfish...
impossible...
unreasonable of me...
i guess i should leave the past...
and look forward to what the future holds...
if this is how we talk...
i just wish that we dont always end in an argument...
sometimes...
good old talking would be a nice change...
wishing;
19:12
i guess i said some hurtful things just now...
it came out the wrong way...
i didnt mean it...
i'm sorry...
truly...
many things happened...
in a short period of time...
it's a little difficult to cope...
i'm glad your out of it...
i seriously am...
there are so many things in which i cant answer for my actions...
it's difficult to tell you an answer to the question you seek...
perhaps when the time comes...
will you know what i'm talking about...
you wanna know the reason for my headaches and migraines???
it's coz i think too much...
wishing;
04:04