Sunday, June 10, 2007
i thank you for your honesty...
i thank you for your thoughts...
i thank you for sharing...
i thank you for showing me how lucky i am...
i thank you that i didnt pick the wrong route...
i thank you for showing me who i am...
i thank you for being there...
i thank you for doubting...
i thank you for the confidence and trust that you have in me...
i thank you for what you wrote...
i thank you for what you didnt share...
i thank you for what you didnt do...
i thank you for what you didnt write...
i thank you for not showing me things...
i thank you for allowing me to knew you...
but i can see all talks end here when i read it...
i have nothing more to say...
because whatever i say makes no difference anymore...
before perhaps...
now never...
maybe it's wrong to do it behind you...
maybe it's wrong to not tell you anything...
maybe it's just wrong that we knew each other...
how many times has it been that i have been able to talk to you now???
you're either busy or dont have the time...
and when you're free...
i happened to be occupied...
i can honestly tell you one thing...
before our group got together...
you were the one i cared most...
in the group...
you were still the one i cared for the most...
even when you got together...
i was happy for you...
i wished you all the best...
before school reopen i wrote a post...
indicating that because of school and all...
we may split...
you told me no...
we'll still be tight...
have you kept that promise???
i believed you...
i believed whatever you said...
i knew you did a lot of things for me...
i thank you for that...
now i no longer know what is right and wrong anymore...
because i am so confused...
by the things around...
by everything...
i no longer know what is a lie...
i no longer what is the truth...
because i no longer know who are you...
perhaps i never did...
my bad then...
i should not have judge you then...
but if i didnt...
i have no right of calling you a best friend...
because best friend dont allow best friend to go down...
perhaps i used this word to freely with you guys...
but to tell you the truth..
i havent used it on anyone so far...
it started with this group...
and if you have noticed...
i only started calling you guys best friends quite recently...
i'm sorry if i have done anything wrong to hurt any of you...
my sincerest apologies...
nothing more i say would matter at this point...
i hope time would heal all wounds...
wishing;
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