Thursday, June 28, 2007
i'm bored...
and i have no life on a thursday night...
oh well...
i'm seriously multi tasking here...
watching nickelodeon...
blogging...
listening to my rhapsody...
playing with rasQ...
all at one go...
woohoo...
haha...
anyway...
i forgot to mention...
this is my first time being late for lessons this sememster...
i came in during the second meeting...
haha...
anyway...
did ut with a migraine...
hurts...
couldnt concentrat for half of the questions...
hmm...
rasQ is bored now...
haha...
after school walked to the mrt with the rest...
and my migraine...
oh well...
went for dinner at pastamania...
came home...
did my rj...
a stupid question though...
write a folk tale about yourself as the main character...
killer question...
anyway...
i'm still getting migraines here and there...
oh man...
wonder what's wrong...
[zee says...
jealousy isnt in my game...
atleast not over that...
that is like so...
no comments...]
wishing;
22:25
hmm...
short term memory loss???
short memory storage???
mental black out???
intended memory wiped out???
intended memory storage???
i donno...
hmmm...
dont ask...
i dont remember what went on the past two days...
i dont remember most of it...
all i know is...
i went to school...
i talked to norman on tuesday night...
i went to do my hair...
went out with joyce and the rest...
worked...
and i'm seriously getting a headache...
so dont ask me what we did or anything...
i'm having a ut later...
arts criticism...
oh well...
maybe i'm eating with michelle and sean...
maybe i'm not...
i donno...
if not i'm going to buy dinner home...
bring rasQ out...
and stay at home to rot...
i'm so looking forward to saturday...
haha...
i'm a workaholic...
and i love being who i am...
dont like it???
get a ride...
out of my life...
woohoo...
okay...
i'm so not myself...
hyper and b*****
lolx...
side effects of waiting for ut...
wishing;
15:51
i'm so getting fat...
haha...
i'm like eating instant noodles now...
lolx...
oh well...
i'm hungry...
i think...
haha...
i seem to be blogging little this few days...
either nothing is interesting...
or it's not worth blogging...
hmmm...
okay wait...
there are some worth blogging and interesting...
but i chose not to...
anyway...
today being wednesday...
i didnt have school...
was suppose to meet joyce at 1145...
i totally took my own sweet time...
so i ended up not joining her...
thank goodness i didnt...
LOL...
anyway...
i just went crazy...
got a hair cut...
and dyed my hair...
lol...
it's like an out of the blue kind of decision...
met the rest at chinatown as they discuss their trip...
had dinner with joyce before work...
work was okay i guess...
haha...
lame with jade...
hmmm...
that's about it i guess...
lolx...
[zee says
you know what???
i think the uncle was liked shocked and freaked out by us...
coz he was like freaking quiet sending me home...
lol...
he understood english and chinese!!!
so should have understood what we said...
LOL...]
wishing;
02:10
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
you're walking on the pavement by the road...
seeing the people walking by...
united in their movements, left right left right...
overall expression similar to one another, stress...
laughters in the air sounded all stale and dry...
although it looks all fake, people pretend otherwise
enjoying that moment though fake...
just to make their day better...
enjoying every moment in life is what everyone wants
succeeding in life is a dream come true for us all
unfortunately, life is not as easy as abc
fate likes to play with us like players to a game of chess
no choice but to play it by fate's hand
oppurtunities are like a pot of gold
close not the door when it does appear
just some random thoughts that came in my mind???
nah...
it's just that yesterday's story and all...
i feel like writing something...
haha...
oh well...
so i'm just writing random things for my sudden desire to write something...
makes sense???
i seem to be taking a hell lot of time to finish this entry...
started like 930!!!
now it's 1045...
omg...
oh well...
wishing;
21:33
had creative concept today...
was kinda screwed during the lesson...
didnt know what to do in general...
oh well...
it's over now...
went kim seng plaza to watch nydc competition...
but i wasnt much of an audience...
i was kinda distracted...
haha...
oh well...
final score...
holland...
heeren...
big o...
suntec...
wheelock...
but that's for bowling only...
overall heeren was the champion...
congrats man...
haha...
went on a spending trip for dinner...
haha...
ichiban boshi...
nice...
haha...
after that we went somerset mrt to get home...
chatted on the way home with joyce...
haha...
had fun...
not a very good topic to talk about...
but it's still a very meaningful talk...
something we havnt been doing for a while yeah...
lets do it more!!!
haha...
it's raining...
nice weather to sleep...
haha...
i shall knock out soon...
lolx...
[zee says...
i havnt broken my promise...
and i dont intend to start now...
nothing would change...
not now...
not ever...
this i promise you...]
wishing;
01:34
Saturday, June 23, 2007
hmmm...
that was an interesting past 2 days...
didnt go sch on thursday...
missed my ut on purpose...
went out with joyce...
and the rest just pon...
their reason???
coz of the 2 of us???
lol...
they gave into temptation...
no will power...
haha...
anyway...
met them for awhile only...
after that joyce and i dissappeared...
haha...
dont tell you where we go...
yesterday went to school for dma...
fun...
coz we were doing on sound...
played with field recorder, shot gun and boom stick...
after that had ut...
then as usual...
we go makan after school...
jin yan had to go after eating...
so i went to the arcade with michelle and sean...
play games and lame around...
it was a fun day...
haha...
gonna work today...
i'm deciding if i should go cycling...
i'm seriously lacking of exercise...
haha...
oh well...
pochahontas just ended...
nice show...
my favourite childhood show...
[zee says...
i believe in destiny...
and faith is all i'm carrying now...
right or wrong...
who's is it to decide???]
your views are all i need now...but it seems that that isnt so...it seems that there are things you cant or are not willing to share...perhaps i'm selfish...perhaps i just think too much...perhaps...
wishing;
13:14
Thursday, June 21, 2007
had an interesting and fun day...
simple yet enjoyable...
it was wednesday...
so no school...
went for a little pool session this afternoon...
after that headed to courts...
i wanted to check out the bean bags...
wasnt as nice as what i saw in the advertisement...
see!!! that's the power of advertisement...
over-exaggeration...
LOL...
learn to much erm...
enterprise...
haha...
and creative concept...
and erm...
art's criticism and anaysis???
maybe...
haha...
oh well...
after that went for a little snack and chats...
saw debbie there...
miss her so much...
didnt see her in so long...
she was 'studying' or studying with 3 other guys...
lol...
anyway...
met joyce anba and nic at cineleisure...
they had their bowling session before that...
so went cineleisure food court for dinner...
after that...
we went to nydc to rot and waited for 6...
but for me it's 7...
so yeah...
haha...
thanks jillienne for the lollipop like cookie...
anyway...
work was fun...
tiring but fun...
haha...
sean and jin yan popped by after their shopping session...
LOL...
sound so gay...
haha...
oops...
overall...
it was a good day...
wishing;
03:27
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
yesterday couldnt blog at all...
something was wrong with the wireless at school...
couldnt access anything but leo and school websites...
first day of school...
so couldnt help it that the wireless was faulty...
haha...
anyway...
yesterday was rasQ's birthday...
i bought her a really big snack for her...
haha...
she keep on eating it...
yet it didnt seem to disappear that fast...
lol...
brought her for a really really long walk after dinner...
saw a cute little baby jack russell...
1 month old...
so cute...
he was sleeping...
and no amount of movement or sound could wake him up...
like wow...
overall i think rasQ is happy that day...
i paid so much attention on her...
haha...
had history today...
doing on hercules...
ended real early...
at 230???
haha...
so i'm rotting now in class...
waiting for the rest to end...
after that heading to causeway point for dinner...
guess i should do my rj while waiting...
haha...
i'm a happy go lucky girl today...
hungry too...
oh man...
i'm always complaining that i'm hungry...
haha...
i wanna sleep too...
oh yeah...
i wasnt used to waking up so early yesterday...
i fell asleep when i reached home...
slept till 8...
haha...
okay...
rj and all are out...
i'm off to doing my homework...
wishing;
15:16
Sunday, June 17, 2007
joyce want me to tell you this...
punk'd...
HAHAHAHA...
okay that was hillarious...
anyway...
isnt it sweet that everyone came to fetch me after work x)
watched ocean 13 yesterday...
or rather this morning...
not exactly as hillarious as i thought it would be...
oh well...
took the first train home which was at 6.33 this morning...
went admiralty fresh market to get the ingredients for dinner...
after showering and cleaning the fish...
i knocked out till 3 in the afternoon...
no one disturb me at all...
woohoo...
haha...
started my preparation for the commercialised day meant for parents...
aka father's day...
haha...
well it's been a long time since i hit the kitchen...
and my fish wasnt cooked...
-.- right???
i agree...
i did a western style cuisine...
potato salad for starters...
cream of mushroom as appetiser???
fish and salad for main course...
and lastly grapes and chocolate for desert...
out of which 2 failed...
my fish wasnt cook...
which means i had to fry it again...
and my grapes werent frozen...
argh...
anyway i didnt have a brother to celebrate today...
since my brother didnt come home...
i had jia yan...
haha...
school's starting again...
which means waking up early and sleeping early...
oh man...
haha...
lets top this post with something that was on my mind since last night or rather this morning...
it's the end of another school holiday...i seem to think our ties have grown...stronger of late...it's a good thing...that's what i think...you guys may have other thoughts...but with what happened in this short short time...with all the pain and joy...that surrounded us in the past 2 weeks...we passed...we overcome what was there...we brought out issues that were there...but hidden in our eyes...and we brought each other closer...knowing the importance if one another through the process...another school term starts...more issues are bound to arise...though there are still secrets among us...that are kept from some...at the end of the day...let us triumph over all the would come...happy 6 months to us...6 months of friendship thats seems like an eternity of knowing one another...i love you guys =)haha...
i'm off to pigging out...
kfc here i come~
LOL...
somebody stop me...
wishing;
23:12
Thursday, June 14, 2007
overslept today...
still i kinda took my time to make it to orchard...
haha...
anyway...
watch fantastic 4: rise of the silver surfer today...
didnt watch the first movie so i cant compare...
but i think the show is nice...
had lunch...
late lunch at sakae sushi...
talk and laugh through out...
after that when to drool at all the macs...
haha...
okay that was exaggerated...
anyway...
went nydc for after meals...
aka sweet food...
lol...
had big apple...
yummy!!!
after that i'm stuffed...
after that we all went our ways...
joyce has japanese class...
sean has soccer...
jin yan going home...
me deciding if i should meet my dad...
in the end i went home instead...
rasQ didnt mess up the place that badly...
so yay...
hope she learned her lesson...
anyway as usual...
the house was empty...
so i watch a little tv...
go online...
shower etc...
just came back from bringing rasQ out for a walk 15 min ago...
feels like it's been a long time since i last did that...
hmm...
was it???
haha...
oh well...
movie on sunday morning anyone???
wishing;
23:02
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
i happen to have a bottomless pit for a stomach today...
just came back from supper 15 mins ago...
haha...
anyway...
went ubin cycling today...
nice tracks...
my first time cycling since my accident...
totally enjoyed the up hill and down hills...
good exercise...
my leg isnt hurting as bad as i thought it would...
haha...
i'm like eating a lot today...
orange juice for breakfast...
had nasi lemak for lunch...
fried some dishes for dinner at ubin...
and lastly noodles for supper...
omg man...
it's been awhile since i last feasted like that...
haha...
i'm about to fall asleep now...
mentally shutting down...
haha...
like computer...
wishing;
02:00
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
work was work...
it distracts me...
for that i'm thankful...
life is life...
it sucks to the core...
wenqi stayed over yesterday night...
havent seen her in a long while...
happy to see her yesterday...
rather...
i'm happy to have someone to talk to yesterday...
i'm tired...
my eyes hurt...
my heart aches...
my brain cant process anymore...
i dont know what to do anymore...
i dont know who to turn to anymore...
i dont know what more can go wrong...
wishing;
01:53
Monday, June 11, 2007
do you know at the end of the day...
what it feels like???
i've watch a documentary once...
do you know how wolves are killed at the cold ends of the world???
get a knife...
deep it in blood...
freeze it...
deep it in blood again...
freeze it again...
repeat this process for a few times...
after that...
place the knife by the handle in the ice...
blade facing up...
and wait...
the hunter would now become the hunted...
driven by the smell of blood...
they come...
licking the knife...
their heat melting the ice layer by layer...
at the end...
they would cut their own tongue without noticing...
cause of death- loss of blood
stab me with your words...
twist it with your logic...
and pulls it out again with you reasons...
it hurts...
it hurts so much...
but all would end...
when i close the door again...
wishing;
12:57
Sunday, June 10, 2007
i thank you for your honesty...
i thank you for your thoughts...
i thank you for sharing...
i thank you for showing me how lucky i am...
i thank you that i didnt pick the wrong route...
i thank you for showing me who i am...
i thank you for being there...
i thank you for doubting...
i thank you for the confidence and trust that you have in me...
i thank you for what you wrote...
i thank you for what you didnt share...
i thank you for what you didnt do...
i thank you for what you didnt write...
i thank you for not showing me things...
i thank you for allowing me to knew you...
but i can see all talks end here when i read it...
i have nothing more to say...
because whatever i say makes no difference anymore...
before perhaps...
now never...
maybe it's wrong to do it behind you...
maybe it's wrong to not tell you anything...
maybe it's just wrong that we knew each other...
how many times has it been that i have been able to talk to you now???
you're either busy or dont have the time...
and when you're free...
i happened to be occupied...
i can honestly tell you one thing...
before our group got together...
you were the one i cared most...
in the group...
you were still the one i cared for the most...
even when you got together...
i was happy for you...
i wished you all the best...
before school reopen i wrote a post...
indicating that because of school and all...
we may split...
you told me no...
we'll still be tight...
have you kept that promise???
i believed you...
i believed whatever you said...
i knew you did a lot of things for me...
i thank you for that...
now i no longer know what is right and wrong anymore...
because i am so confused...
by the things around...
by everything...
i no longer know what is a lie...
i no longer what is the truth...
because i no longer know who are you...
perhaps i never did...
my bad then...
i should not have judge you then...
but if i didnt...
i have no right of calling you a best friend...
because best friend dont allow best friend to go down...
perhaps i used this word to freely with you guys...
but to tell you the truth..
i havent used it on anyone so far...
it started with this group...
and if you have noticed...
i only started calling you guys best friends quite recently...
i'm sorry if i have done anything wrong to hurt any of you...
my sincerest apologies...
nothing more i say would matter at this point...
i hope time would heal all wounds...
wishing;
19:48
lalalal~
okay...
that was fun while it lasted...
haha...
crapped a lot...
till the side effects start kicking in...
my bad...
haha...
lets try that again!!!
haha...
anyway i went to bed straight after i reach home...
slept till 2 ish...
woke up feeling better...
but...
i'm still a little sick of it???
haha...
anyway...
had fun crashing at joyce's place...
chatting...
playing...
eating...
cleaning...
it's fun when you have the right company...
haha...
love you guys...
loads...
i'm hungry...
again...
oh my...
haha...
wishing;
15:46
i am not high!!!
i am perfectly normal...
happy...
and normal...
lalalalla~
i'm blogging in joyce's house!!!
lalalal~
shut up sean!!!
haha...
be right back later!!!
wishing;
04:42
Saturday, June 09, 2007
i have things to say...
but i cant say...
not here atleast...
oh man...
what to do...
aint it always like that...
sometimes i donno what to think...
it's like you want something...
but you dont wanna be demanding and all...
you give that something up...
that kind of feelings...
not a good feeling i guess...
i'm damn mixed up...
a lot of things..
but basically it's on one issue...
if anyone were to know me well...
they should know...
sometimes...
people want things...
they get it...
i want things...
i dont get it...
that's fine...
but at times i'm all open...
the doors shut on me...
and people expect me to be open forever...
people need protection...
so do i...
i'm not an open book alright...
and on top of that...
i can see that there are things more important
then me...
wishing;
12:54
Friday, June 08, 2007
workaholic me much???
haha...
oh well...
saw priscilla and claressa yesterday...
they were out with their friends...
anyway...
nothing much happened yesterday...
cymon didnt come home yesterday night...
donno where did he went...
thanks to my dad's bright idea of canceling his line because he blew his sms by like 800%...
there's no way for me to contact him...
so i spend the night at home alone with rasQ...
and as usual...
she starts barking 6 ish...
now i know why...
she needs the toilet...
haha...
oh well...
i shall bring her out later before i go off...
then if i'm not too tired...
i'll bring her again when i get back...
haha...
[zee says...
popcorns are not for another day...
it's for interesting shows...
and i hope it'll be interesting...
LOL...
yeah yeah...
i'm sadistic...
i know...
haha...]
wishing;
13:34
Thursday, June 07, 2007
beware what you wish for...
just because i was complain about being bored earlier...
doesnt give fate permission to throw this at me...
it doesnt give fate the permission to pull me into an argument in the wee hors...
it doesnt give fate the cruel and sick idea of playing this game...
i hate it when it happens...
i hate it when people give in to me...
it gives me the impression that i'm the kinda girl that i hate...
the kind that whines and expect the whole world to give in to her...
the kind that thinks by whining the whole world would give in to her...
the kind that thinks by whining she gets to rule the world around her...
the kind that thinks by whining she gets all tha she wants and never needing anything else...
i'm not that kind of person...
if you think i am...
think again...
this girl has teeth and claws...
i aint no whiner...
i aint one who would expect all good things to come my way...
i aint one that would act cute and have the boys flooding my way...
i aint one that needs to believe in everything everyone says...
i dont need people to give in to me because i'm angry, sad or depressed...
i dont need the world to stop for me...
if you think i'm that...
think again...
think again...
[zee says...
zee has nothing to say because nothing to say already says something and it doesnt matter if i said something or nothing because you already think that there is something eventhough i said nothing, making it anything is possible in these nothingness which i mentioned...]
crap???
playing with words???
or am i trying to say something???
by the way...
i wasnt born yesterday...
if you wanna do something like that...
try not to leave any trace behind...
try to prove me wrong...
wishing;
02:12
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
came back yesterday night...
and didnt feel like doing anything...
so watched a little tv...
and slept till 1130 today...
haha...
watch zodiac yesterday...
not my kinda show...
but it's okay i guess...
had indonesian buffet for dinner...
and joshua can feel his tongue after that x)
lousy guy...
haha...
played foosball and pool before we headed home...
hmmm...
i think i'm having weird dreams...
yesterday i was dreaming about cashiering...
today i dreamed about people kept on saying mtcc...
omg???
and thank goodness rasQ woke me up with her barking...
then mtcc stopped...
freaky man...
i think i should stopped working so much...
haha...
nevermind...
my break is coming soon...
oh no...
no break...
i changed my schedule!!!
oh well...
i'll have my break soon enough...
haha...
wishing;
11:59
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
lalalala~
going out later...
go town...
haha...
rasQ is sleeping quietly on my lap...
she so ke lian lor...
actually not ke lian la...
more like naughty...
so was punished and locked up for sometime...
haha...
i finally let her out...
and feed her...
be back later for more information...
if i have the time x)
here i am wondering...
if i made the right choice...
to me yes or no doesnt matter...
but now i see that yes or no matters...
atleast it is...
in your eyes...
i'm wondering if i made the right choice by saying...
i say no...
you'll 'believe'...
i say yes...
you'll feel that history is repeating itself...
at the end of it...
i said yes...
because it isnt mine to harvest...
i'm only enjoying the fun of it all...
and that's good enough for me...
[zee says
your deduction is half wrong...
your timing is wrong...
the reason in which you saw through it is wrong...]
wishing;
12:24
Sunday, June 03, 2007
i was thinking about this song on the way home yesterday...
i was wondering in how many ways can this be applied...
so i went to search for the translation of this song...
and i found my answer...
you wanna know what song is it???
i guess it applies to a lot of things...
it's always the first time that is the best...
the initial raw emotion at that time...
after sometime...
factors are added in...
thats when it changes...
if you survive those...
it'll be better then before...
wanna know what i'm thinking???
think zee...
wishing;
16:23
Saturday, June 02, 2007
its about to rain here...
the nice sunny blue sky...
turn grey and cloudy...
its going to rain soon...
and here i am blogging...
though i dont have anything to say...
blogging is like a daily routine to me...
oh well...
i like writing anyway...
my dad cut off my tv supply...
think it's because of my brother...
oh well...
atleast i still have the net...
and i am the only one who uses it at home...
my house phone is also confiscated by my dad...
also because of cymon if i am not wrong...
oh well...
i'm not home much anyway...
it's just a matter of time before my dad kills me...
i guess...
i am packed most nights for the next 2 weeks...
i wanna fill in as much as i can so that i wont have to work so much when school reopens...
my dad just got home...
and i just got scolded...
i feel like going library now...
quiet...
oh well...
i'll just stay in my room and listen to music then...
clean up my room a little before i head out...
atleast he has one thing less to nag at me about...
[zee says...
it's as if you see things not in your own eyes...
but through the eyes of others...
regarding your life...
thats when all the emotion you should have...
should feel...
doesnt show its' true colours...
rather it is replaced by a sense of black hole...
not being able to feel anything...
because in your mind...
it's not you...
if then that's the case...
who are you anymore???]
wishing;
15:41
Friday, June 01, 2007
HYPER!!!
hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper ...
lalalala~
and i didnt even take too much sugar...
donno what am i high on...
haha...
went around to play with Canon SLR 350 D...
fun...
stomach making noise now...
but i am not hungry...
i think???
haha...
crashing jia yan's house tonight....
lalalala~
hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper hyper ...
wishing;
14:20
i am hyper...
haha...
thats good...
yay...
anyway i watch finish my bl.each already...
now searching for spaghetti recipe for my brother...
i am trying to modify it...
haha...
hope it turns out well...
my eyes are tired...
but i am mentally hyper...
haha...
feeling so restless...
so fun...
lalalla~
i wanna play!!!
wishing;
02:43
