Saturday, April 28, 2007
when i got on the train...
i just realise how tired i am...
i am tired of the day...
i am tired for the day...
i am tired with the day...
i am tired because of the day...
i am tired throughout the day...
maybe i shouldnt have said anything...
maybe i did the right thing...
maybe i shouldnt have known anything...
maybe it was fate...
maybe i made a mistake...
throughout yesterday night till today...
i wondered if i did the right thing...
really really wondered if i should have just kept my mouth shut...
everything kept on repeating in my mind...
details of things replying back and forth...
jia yan posted me this question yesterday...
if i could turn back time...
would i still do the same thing...
my answer was yes...
even if you asked me now...
i would still say yes...
so why is it that i feel guilty???
guilt is a powerful push factor...
it was guilt that made me make the choice...
it was still guilt that i feel in the end...
knowing and not know has no different...
both of them kills...
all i can say now is that...
what's done is done...
and if anything is to blame...
i would blame me...
i would blame me for not being able to say no...
i would blame me for being weak...
i would blame me for knowing too much...
i would blame me for not keeping quiet...
wishing;
21:44
