Saturday, March 31, 2007
damn it...
i shouldnt have read it...
sinking myself into depression...
so maybe it isnt nothing...
whatever man...
i dont give a damn...
i just wanna get out...
i dont care if there's something...
so darn looking forward to going to sentosa on monday...
need to clear my thinking...
away from people...
while drifting in the ocean...
wishing;
13:33
Thursday, March 29, 2007
omg...
i havnt blogg in 2 days only...
and i forgot how to log in...
totally forgot bout my password as well...
needed 3 tries before i can enter...
like wow?
haha...
anyway...
lets see what i did for the past 2 days...
erm...
tuesday went to joyce's place...
enjoyed the meal there...
didnt expect her to be a cook...
haha...
stayed around for awhile...
laughed and lamed...
and the usual stuff...
i didnt go yesterday at all...
totally stayed at home to watch tv...
play game...
surf the net...
and brainstorm...
i really should thank cs and joyce...
talking to them gave my brain a kick...
haha...
totally thought about things...
thanks for the inspiration...
going jin yan's place on sun...
haha...
going to sentosa on mon...
woohoo...
count down-6 days =p
wishing;
23:19
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
its juz one of those days where you wake up you aint yourself...
rather you wake up wondering if you have been a jerk...
or have you been the victim...
waking up wondering what the hell is going on with you...
should you do this or that...
everything seems to be against you...
and everything you decide seems to have a fault...
perhaps its stress you might say...
or bottling up of too much emotions...
i don't know...
even now while writing this...
i have freaking no idea what i am writing...
i m like just drifting here...
dont even know why i started blogging...
i feel like i am wearing a mask...
and its freaking long since i last wore a mask...
and i don't wanna wear one...
but i can't not wearing one unless i know what's going on..
if i don't wanna leave a trail of destruction everywhere i go...
perhaps this mask is a restrain...
which is good i guess...
wishing;
13:37
Monday, March 26, 2007
there was once a place...
to protect it...
the ruler ordered a wall to be build around it...
because the ruler feels that it would protect the people in it...
prevent the place from being overruled by foreigners...
to prevent others from taking advantages of the kingdom...
only some who have passed the test...
a test set by the ruler...
would obtain the key to the kingdom...
few managed to enter...
after sometime...
both the people and the ruler felt that the wall is not of any use to them...
it didnt bring them much prosperity...
instead...
others fear this kingdom...
while others try to invade this kingdom by force...
to prevent unwanted trouble to the kingdom...
the entire kingdom agreed to tear down the wall...
in the hopes of a better life...
it did...
it prosper with the help of others...
but good things didnt last long for the poor kingdom..
there were suffering and confusion among the people...
and now once again...
the ruler has to decide if the wall should be brought up again...
or allow the people to go through all this...
in hopes that it will bring them good at the end...
people change through time...and times changes through people...this has been the senario for of the world since the creation of time...for better or worst...we revolve around one another...with one another...but remember one thing...do not forget yourself...as you follow the trend of the world...let not yourself forget who you originally were...good or bad...it serves us as a reminder...on how much we have changed...and how much we should continue changing...for the better of our time on earth...
wishing;
00:14
Saturday, March 24, 2007
omg...
its 1 week since i blogged???
lol...
was bz e entire week...
from moving house...
to chalet...
to getting sick...
to unpacking...
haha...
all in a weeks work...
we officially moved on monday...
had movers n stuff to carry the big items n like 20-30 boxes???
haha...
after that i totally juz went chalet to die in the late evening...
rest a lil...
chalet was fun...
interesting too...
haha...
that ended on wednesday...
totally juz went home to sleep after that...
n i unpacked n stuff...
totally net tv n house phoneless for 2 days...
all was settle only yesterday...
so yesterday we went kallang makan...
different cooking style...
nice...
haha...
going ecp on mon...
i wanna cycle man...
haha...
den gg makan on tues...
hmmm...
my next week is a lil planned already...
haha...
thats cool...
wishing;
12:08
Sunday, March 18, 2007
now i know why this scene looks so familiar...
now i know why i fear so much...
now my worst fears are coming true...
it too coincidental...
its like the beginning of history is repeating by itself....
i dont want it to repeat...
i dont want me to go through hell again...
i need to be careful the next few weeks...
any small mistake would cause me...
i juz hope it wont happen again...
i dont wanna drop this circle...
not again...
not now...
not after all these...
wishing;
02:45
Saturday, March 17, 2007
i m tired...
very very tired...
with the move...
and myself...
frustrated in every corner of my life...
paranoid in things around me...
thinking too much...
a phrase hit me today...
and i think i have failed as a friend...
because i cant even fulfill the basic criteria...
trust and understanding...
a relationship is based on trust...
may it be between friends or couples...
a bond of trust needs to be there...
understanding brings people closer...
when things happen...
people need people who understands...
i have neither...
if thats the case am i not a hypocritic???
n i hate hyporcitics...
i take things for granted...
well thats gonna change...
i promise...
i am gonna change...
i will try my best in all aspects...
try to be a better person...
its a promise to myself and to my friends...
wishing;
19:13
Friday, March 16, 2007
wow???
i like broke my previous record???
haha...
was kinda busy the entire week...
didnt have time to blog...
so i shall blog out my entire week and maybe next right now...
lets see...
monday...
my aunts arrive...
started clearing at like 11++...
i didnt go out that day...
other than to eat...
so you can guess how long we cleaned...
tuesday...
had a lil cleaning in the morning...
went orchard around 4++...
brought my aunts to orchard tower coz one of them needed to go MMI...
after that went borders awhile...
then i had to go...
PA bbq...
met chee chuan n jia rui at orchard mrt and went together...
had fun there...
talked quite a bit with liwen that day...
after that went pool with brenda bryan jia rui yao zong wen zhang...
cs came when i had to go...
haha...
wonder why i was super moody that day...
anyway after that met joyce sean joshua n priscilla at orchard...
kbox...
they cheer me up right away???
haha...
super remedy...
anyway spend the night there...
wednesday...
dad came home the day before...
so its was like triple dose of control that day...
clean and clean and clean...
brought some stuff up to admiralty...
thursday...
my aunts left...
i fell asleep after that and didnt do any packing that day...
went to nus for a dance performance...
after that we went to cck for pool...
took the last train home...
friday which is today...
stayed at home the whole day...
i only went out for dinner...
had dinner with sean joshua and michelle...
the house is in a mess now coz of the move...
guess we are moving some stuff up tomorrow...
and the rest either on sunday or monday or both...
but my piano is 100% going up on monday...
professional movers...
monday's the chalet...
i wonder if that's a good thing or bad...
haha...
i'll just have to wait and find out...
wishing;
22:15
Sunday, March 11, 2007
today's post is gonna be rather long cause i got quite a lot to say...
my left index finger hurts...
it stings when i shower...
all thanks to someone...
dont wanna go amk...
ps us...
i was so sad...
n you figure out what happened next...
LOL...
we nidda find new outing ideas man...
we are seriously getting bored going out and wander around...
chalet's coming up too..
after i move...
so it wont be that bad anymore...
haha...
anyway next week i got quite a number of things planned...
mon- aunts coming
tues- orientation, bbq(maybe), go out
wed- aunts leaving(supposedly)
thurs- going out with 3js(nice nick right???LOL)
fri- nth planned yet
sat- moving some stuff up(supposedly), mozaic(or whatever you spell it if josh is playing)
sun- moving out(supposedly)
since my aunts are driving down...
maybe i should get my bike officially fixed...
say monday?
oh yeah...
i nidda get my bunk bed sorted out as well...
oh man...
where would i be ale to find the time???
fri would be too late...
i've decided to clear out as much stuff as i could by 3 am later...
so as to make sure my room's privacy is not shattered by any1 else...
i should have time on tues after orientation n b4 bbq hopefully...
to go ikea to check things out...
try to comfirm my bed by then...
hopefully...
and get a pair of dunks?
haha...
but oh man...
i still nidda bring my dad there...
argh...
wed i should be free as well if they are leaving...
but before that...
i nidda get some stuff up to admiralty if i plan to not help out that much on sat night...
so i shall make full use of my aunt's car...
and i still nidda finish painting one side of my room...
zZz...
decide some other time...
wahahaha...
anyway...
brenda ask dont want the gang le arh???
i dont know...
our friendship is hitting rock bottom...
i dont wanna lose this 5 years friendship...
but with all of us going our separate ways...
its difficult to come back together...
jy and cs working...
fiona is lazy to come out...
susan comes if fiona is there...
azimah is busy with her studies...
justine is having her attachment now...
i am gonna start working too...
where would we find time now???
apparently being away from one another brings us farther from each other...
and its something we all have to deal with...
i'll try my best to be around when you guys need me...
i promise...
wishing;
23:57
Saturday, March 10, 2007
overslept again...
i should kick the habit of waking up at 12 regardless of what time i sleep...
it'll do me good if i can survive sleeping lesser...
i guess...
i said i will whip something up regarding this issue right???
you're a wrist cut away from being emo...
lets see if i can do something right now based on what i've seen yesterday...
how long can you bottle up your emotion???how long does it take before you breakdown???how much can you withstand this sudden breakdown???people dont cry for no reason...its always been for something...joy humour pain or heartbreak...its all part of us...that's what friends are for...through thick and thin true friends are there...through sharing...your burdens are lessen...and leads you away from a wrist cut from being emo...hmmm...
basically what i wrote doesnt seem part of that theme though...
its more like what i feel about something...
oh well...
i tried my best...
in writing that i mean...
well i am off to research on some interesting places in singapore...
rather quiet places to think...
wishing;
12:06
Friday, March 09, 2007
its like 7am in e morning...
n here i m blogging...
considering the fact that i slpt at 2...
n ocassionally woke up...
coz i was slping in the living room...
to check on e progress of my laptop....
i m surprise i can wake up...
n try to wake my brother up...
n he juz totally pissed me off...
n i seriously hate being pissed off...
immediately after i wake up...
people say it aint good for u 2 slp feeling pissed or angry...
i would agree...
i also agree that its not good to be pissed off after ur woke up...
but surprisingly the emotion...
isnt thr anymore...
i guess it muz be the lack of slp...
considering the fact that i have been slp till noon the past few days...
ytd i was playing game...
n i heard sum1 saying this...
you're just a wrist away from being emo...
haha...
i think its a nice phrase...
perhaps i will write something bout that later when i have the time...
oh yeah...
i noticed the style og blogging today seems different...
its different from my usual haha n lols...
must be the lack of slp my brain received...
not enough to convey my thoughts to sms language???
i think i'll go bac to sleep...
considering the fact that he said i am not skipping sch...
i am just sleeping some more...
how ironic...
going out later in the afternoon...
rather long plans today...
oh yeah...
i am hungry...
i am going bac to sleep...
wishing;
07:02
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
i this few days like seldom blog leh...
wonder y...
blog also blog bout donno wad 2 blog...
haha...
went out 2day...
as usual...
makan n pool...
after tat go sing lor...
since e 2 of them wanted 2 sing...
pei dem lor...
haha...
anyway my future rm is not gonna b plain old simple white anymore...
had my rm painted in ashley blue n apple white...
gonna add another shade into it soon...
haha...
don wan it to be so dull...
decide on e other colour later ba...
i also got other things 2 decide...
like work n stuff...
haha...
wishing;
02:05
Sunday, March 04, 2007
apparently i got nth 2 do now...
no choice but to come here n say hi???
haha...
i quit my game...
n hope tat ppl on msn can entertain me...
apparently it failed...
so here i m saying good nite...
haha...
i m hungry...
cannot eat...
will grow fat...
i don wanna grow fat...
tml hav 2 paint house...
paint my room rather...
donno wad colour...
tml den decide ba...
since nth to do now...
i shall go slp...
wishing;
01:28
Thursday, March 01, 2007
double yay for 2day...
haha...
lets talk bout e important yay 1st...
i pass my enterprise skills 2...
woohoo...
tats great news for me...
so i don nid 2 retake any module...
n i get 1 day off...
haha...
my gpa went down...
as expected since i didnt put in much effort in my sem 2 modules...
targeted 3.7 n above...
haha...
but i slacked a lor...
but e end result was still satisfactory...
haha
its 3.3 according to leo...
but i think for sem 2 my gpa is only 3...
tat means 3.3 is my gpa for year 1...
haha...
either way i m still happy...
2nd yay is funny...
haha...
let me tell u smth...
2day was fun...
sort of...
haha...
rejected 43 of them...
sad case for them la...
donno my eye sight too sharp???
or their standards too low sia...
eitherway...
2day i saw 43 of them...
n i rejected all 43 of them...
haha...
pro right...
LOL...
wishing;
21:56