Wednesday, February 28, 2007
i hate making decisions...
seriously i do...
here i m debating over the issue over n over again...
i feel bad for not gg...
i feel bad for already given my word...
i should hav juz gone with e flow...
y does it hav 2 clash as always???
my head is in chaos now...
hate feeling bad...
i hate wavering over e issue once it is already decided...
but i cant help wondering if i made e wrong choice...
to say yes or no...
that is the question...
wishing;
17:34
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
hmmm...
my longest record away from my blog these 2 weeks...
2 days...
LOL...
anyway didnt blog ytd n e day b4...
coz to tired or lazy to go online...
haha...
anyway...
kinda went around central area ytd...
morning went 2 do my passport...
n wow man...
its like so nice la...
e embassy i mean...
its a far cry from wad i rmb 5 years ago...
haha...
ok that place was at jevoius road...
i think tats how u spell it...
haha...
after tat i went orchard 2 slack for like 2 hours...
went 2 read books...
so guai right???
haha...
after that took 162 to thompson...
but it was raining so i took all e way 2 bishan instead...
met up with joshua n joyce...
den went bac 2 upper thompson road...
had prata...
den flew to tpy to meet dawn...
had a lil chat n stuff...
den went 2 amk to meet cs brenda n azimah...
played pool...
i kip on sinking in the 8ball...
sad case man...
haha...
anyway this is a poem that i got on sunday...
rather nice poem though...
its entitled...
the tears just wont stop flowing tonight
in a night where the half moon shines bright,
its as if the light is not enough,
the darkness is all that there is.
and in this darkness,
she cried.
all that was locked in her heart,
suddenly just broke lose.
she shed tears through the night.
through the wee hours,
its still there.
the tears just wont stop flowing tonight.
wishing;
10:49
Sunday, February 25, 2007
went church ytd...
shannon gave the sermon...
haha...
interesting sermon tat he gave...
was suppose 2 go hm after church...
den go out again...
but thxs 2 sum incident...
i went 2 e library instead...
after that i went orchard...
went to find junli n run an errand for joyce...
i juz didnt wanna go hm...
so hang out with junli till 540...
after the guys reached...
we went to nydc...
fetch joyce n also makan...
welll the guys ate...
joyce packed...
den watch letters from iwo jima...
nice show i guess...
but not my cup of tea...
after tat check out chingay parade awhile...
den had a lil chat...
after tat went kbox...
reach hm rather early...
LOL...
fun...
drove sum emotions away...
guess tats wad i needed at that time...
haha...
anyway daniel's gg bac to thai 2day...
hope he has fun thr...
no idea whr r we gg 2day yet...
i feel like gg sumwhr 2 laze n see the scenery...
but i donno...
see ba...
i woke up this morning without any 'adults' at hm...
fine with it...
wishing;
14:24
Thursday, February 22, 2007
n here r e pics i promised...
from e outing...
nice man...
the view of the ocean...
taken from the jeatty if i m not wrong...
n this i taken from the place i called suicidal place...
haha...
its like so nice la...
its after the national sailing smth i think...
haha
ok...
thats all i hav from east coast...
wishing;
21:47
for once i m online early man...
haha...
went out n came hm late for so many days already...
haha...
nidda hav sum changes 2day...
LOL...
met ven 2day...
talk a lil while den she gotta ps me le =(
haha...
after that went 2 makan at wnk...
verdict...
chicken rice not so nice...
haha...
while i was thr...
met dawn...
she ran out of class...
LOL...
we chat awhile den she gotta go bac in le...
all of them bullying me lor...
zZz...
went haagen daazs after that instead of movie...
haha...
had a lil chat...
den head over 2 joshua's house...
saw laptin...
haha...
i think that's how i spell it...
haha...
after den came hm lor...
lolx...
wishing;
20:05
tired...
here i m lying on my bed blogging again...
haha...
gonna slp after this man...
no1 2 talk 2 online...
they r either offline...
slping...
or away...
saded...
haha...
anyway...
went east coast for a small lil w16k gathering...
there was karen claudia lizhen josh norman gerald sean??? n me...
haha...
new member...
cycled from mac 2 a suicidal area???
haha....
donno wad u call tat place...
but its a nice place wif a great view...
e view 2day was breath taking...
i got e pics on my hp haha...
if got time den i upload ba...
after tat...
went joyce's place 4 cny...
watch them play...
sum won...
sum lost...
had a great time...
after tat went supper wif norman joshua n sean...
den went hm...
great day of fun...
tiring results...
haha...
wishing;
02:24
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
woke up 2day n was super pissed...
rasQ bit thru my charger cable...
omg man...
seriously...
i woke up n found tat my hp wasnt beside me...
n tat only mean 1 thing...
rasQ...
zZz...
n i was half right...
so now my laptop is running on another charger...
hope it's ok man...
haha...
anyway was late 4 lunch...
so sisnt go pepper's with jin yan josh jesslyn n junli...
omg...
all Js...
haha...
anyway...
went chronos house 4 cny...
den watch juz folo law with joyce...
funnie show...
u guys should go watch it...
after tat went vivo...
haha...
nice evening man...
LOL...
i shall keep it a secret...
haha...
i m off 2 watch my dn angel...
wishing;
00:19
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
hmmm...
ytd zac n family came...
rather fun...
got extra angpao...
haha...
well i decided not 2 go bac 2day wif them...
1 reason n i m not gonna say it out here...
so no 1 ask...
after tat...
went 4 dinner wif josh n sean...
since sum1 PS us...
so we ended up not gg 2 sizzler...
went vila'ge instead...
the food was nice...
i like the soup...
homemade kinda taste...
after tat...
wanted 2 pool but no table...
so we end up playing billiards...
after 1 game den i gtg...
suppose 2 reach hm 10++
didnt make it...
haha...
nvm...
didnt get scolded...
brought rasQ out for a walk...
she didnt poo...
zZz...
she juz sniff e whole place out...
haha...
now she's slping already...
beside me now...
on my bed...
haha...
wishing;
01:07
Sunday, February 18, 2007
ur always trying to find fault in us...
is it a game 2 u???
wadeva happens u'll pin it on 1 of us...
r we always 2 blame 4 everything???
its the first day on e lunar calender
n u hav 2 do tat...
u always say we ignore u when u talk...
yeah rite...
i try 2 respect u as much as i could...
n when i did some basic communication 2day...
like asking if u guys wanna eat...
all i get in silence...
but u were looking at me from the corner of ur eye...
n 1 hour later...
u ask if we were gg out 2 eat...
n u denied the fact tat i asked u...
after tat u let him use e lappy...
n when u use it...
it had faults...
u blame it on him without finding out e truth...
n when u were left speechless...
u said he should hav told u...
like hello...
1st time it didnt work...
but after tat it did...
y not u blame it on sum1 else hu hav e pw 2 it???
is it cause u don hav e guts???
or u juz enjoy making our lives miserable...
mayb gg tml would make my life more enjoyable for the next 1 week...
but leaving him ur alone wont b good as well...
poor him hu has 2 suffer for 1 week...
alone if i m gg...
if i m gg...
this would b my last post for the next week...
if u don hear from me from tml onwards...
every1 can treat me dead for the next 1 week...
wishing;
23:20
lalalala~
new year is here...
chinese new year i mean...
haha...
so boring at hm leh...
haha...
i woke up this morning...
watch tv till now...
haha...
not bad right???
lolx...
played wif rasQ also...
scratch me like crazy...
pain sia...
haha...
but nvm...
it was good work out...
haha...
wishing;
13:15
Saturday, February 17, 2007
ok...
after playing around with the template for donno how long...
here's my new skin for the time being...
haha...
i think its nice...
wad do u guys think...
haha...
anyway...
went church 2day...
den chatted with people awhile n came hm...
its cny tml already...
haha...
get big ang pao from my dad...
LOL...
i m looking for job...
any1 hav anything 2 recommend me???
wishing;
17:06
Friday, February 16, 2007
lets talk bout the good things tat happen 2day...
the usual people....
joyce josh jin yan n sean...
came over for dinner 2day...
errr...
i mean ytd since its already 1 am now...
since i suggested it on v day coz i couldnt go out errr...ytd...
haha...
made 4 dishes...
potato n chicken stew....
spinach...
tomato soup...
n egg salad...
after dinner we went chomp chomp for desert...
haha...
yeah...
oh yeah v day we went movie...
ghost rider...
not bad movie...
got cute guy...
haha...
after tat went hougang...
for the european funfair...
anyway...
what i m writing next is not for the emos...
no offence though...
i juz wanted 2 voice my feelings n thought out without making people cry...
so skip the next part for those who cry easily...
juz now while looking 4 smth...
i found the cd with all her pics inside...
cried a lil while watching the pics...
its like i miss her so much...
yet i cant get to her...
den on v day itself...
i found a poem that i really liked at that time...
its entitled heaven's phone number...
its about a lil girl asking the phone operator for the number...
the number to heaven...
so she could call heaven n let her mum noe tat she is needed now...
tat she needs to come home now...
that she is missed n stuff...
here is the poem...
heaven's phone book
does heaven have a phone number??
mummy went to heaven,
but i really need her here today.
my tummy hurts and i fell down,
i need her right away,
i really need your help operator
to find her in this book.
is heaven in the yellow part??
i dont know where to look.
i think daddy needs her too,
at night i hear him cry.
i hear him call her name sometimes,
but i really dont know why.
maybe if i call her,
she will hurry home to me
is heaven very far away??
is it across the sea??
she has been gone a long, long time.
she needs to come home now.
i really need to reach her.
but i simply dont know how.
help me find the number please.
is it listed under heaven??
i cant read this big, big words,
i am only seven.
i am sorry operator.
i didnt mean to make you cry.
is your tummy hurting too??
or is there something in your eye??
if i call my church maybe they will know.
mummy said when we need help,
that's where we should go.
i found the number to my church
tacked up on the wall.
thank you operator,
i will give them a call.
wishing;
01:02
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
i'll say it once more...
i was still perfectly sane ytd...
high...
but sane...
haha...
n e slp ytd nite was damn nice...
haha....
gg east coast later...
cycling....
i wan go cycle 2 changi...
scream my heart out...
long time never scream le...
haha...
anyway ven gg bac 2 batam 2day...
hav fun thr k...
don 4get us...
lolx...
oh yeah...
2nite gg european funfair...
lets hav fun..
a different kinda fun from ytd...
haha...
now i very scared of chalet le...
but i m gonna make sure sum1 insane 1st b4 i do...
haha...
single's day out starts....
wishing;
09:23
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
ok it's finally the holz....
2day's e 1st day of holz....
n i woke up at 11...
woohooo...
haha...
since i cant play maple with my com anyway...
was watchin jojo's how 2 touch a girl juz now...
rather nice lyrics...
haha...
i feel tat i went 2 sch a lil 2 overdress ytd...
haha...
nvm...
went out ytd nite...
with joyce sean n josh....
went pool...
joyce was so off e whole nite man...
haha...
n we talked about some stuff...
so yeah...
gg out later again...
haha...
gonna check out sum1's new hairdo...
lolx....
i go watch bleach le...
wishing;
11:29
Sunday, February 11, 2007
confused...
confused...
confused...
m i living a lie???
or m i potraying a lie???
or is it juz that everyone else is also pms-ing along with me???
i read a few blogs b4 blogging...
2 out of 3 blogs r....
'shit omg crap e world sux'...
e 3rd 1 wasnt like tat...
coz it wasnt updated...
-.-"
i was like... on e way hm...
reached hm i was expecting... but...
i reach hm he went out 2 fetch ppl...
ok...
fine with me...
i ask him bout 2day...
he was like we r all gg 2gether...
zZz...
it leaves me hanging...
wondering if wad i ever though was wrong...
uncertainty about things could kill...
wadeva it is...
i hope it's over soon...
i nid a breather...
wishing;
09:20
Friday, February 09, 2007
this few days keep on watching movie in class...
they watched texas massacre...
harry porter...
now million dollar baby...
haha...
we boliao la...
nth 2 do i guess...
haha...
anyway...
we gave andy his present from the class...
he was shocked beyond words...
haha...
with both the card n problem 17...
anyway 2day o lvl result day...
wenqi bie foo bie hoon yen fenn susan n brenda did well....
e rest i donno yet...
hope all of u do well k...
all e best in e choices u guys make in the x junction....
wishing;
16:38
Thursday, February 08, 2007
things r not wad it seems in life....
wad is wrong wif me???
michelle says i am disturbed by smth....
joyce noticed i mood swing since like 2 weeks ago....
donno leh...
perhaps its me taking everything inside without saying much...
i donno la...
hope it pass soon...
this phrase i mean...
wadeva la...
i mayb hiding behind my mask...
but atleast i m not hypocritical....
i don act like smth in front of sum1...
and act like so nice wif me infront of sum1...
atleast i noe how 2 b true 2 myself...
ohyeah 1 more thing...
i don do things in e dark....
wishing;
09:02
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
I WOKE UP LATE!!!!
MISS UT!!!
OMG!!!!
UNFAIR!!!
but i still end up coming 2 sch...
around 1...
haha...
bored at hm...
rasQ barked b4 i left hm...
poor girl...
haiz...
but i come sch also bored...
lolx...
nvm la...
got things 2 luff...
better den i mood swing at hm...
scary sia...
donno y also....
haiz...
come sch c them play xbox360...
lalallaa...
nvm...
wishing;
13:34
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
got ppl complain i everyday bloggg leh...
=(
how???
haha...
don care...
anyway...
ytd was fun...
sean's bdae...
14 sets of pranks...
short of 5 but nvm...
haha...
we fed him our "special homemade" erm... bun...
haha....
den smash cream to his face...
smash cake 2 his shirt...
made him wear his bdae gift...
had a happy bdae sean n hope u get pregnant soon...
that's the 1st half...
the 2nd half was at seoul garden...
went with jin yan josh sean n joyce
fed him wasabi smth...
erm...
ginger ice kacang...
wasabi egg...
ginseng sprite...
sprite n soup...
chilli tofu....
erm...
cant rmb le...
haha...
den after that went my place...
kinda...
haha...
they went bac get stuff 1st...
den stay overnite at my place..
den came sch 2day....
rasQ was overjoyed 2 see them...
she had fun ytd...
slp wif all of us too...
haha...
oh yeah...
his last prank was from mother nature...
mosquitoes....
lol...
wishing;
14:37
Monday, February 05, 2007
here i m blogging after gg thru sum blogs...
i guess we all did change...
we change 2gether so we wont noe e differences...
but yet...
when we look back into the past...
the differences is so significant...
u'll b wondering y no1 noticed the differences....
i donno wad 2 say...
i like it???
i don like it???
its up 2 individual i guess...
everything changes in time...
so do i...
i juz hope that we wont drift away from one another...
lets try 2 stay close as much as possible....
because the future in uncertain...
even if we meet new frenz on the way...
don 4get the times we once had...
frenz for 5 years...
lets try 2 aim it to 10....
wishing;
15:15
Sunday, February 04, 2007
hmmm...
hav u ever wonder y do u say n bare ur souls out 2 ppl u juz noe???
i mean...
i do tat very often???
haha...
m i trying to return to the past???
or m i trying to 4get e past???
or m i juz trying to attract sympathy???
r ppl juz interested in my past???
or they wanna get 2 noe me better???
or they r juz sry for me???
i don think so...
wadeva it is...
it felt great baring out things once in awhile...
better than no comments all the time...
so far i can only rmb baring out those things to a few...
so few muz b lucky???
or unfortunate for being there at that time???
wadeva it is...
thx for asking i guess...
u wanna noe y i like e beach???
coz its a place whr i can bare my soul...
a place i can feel wad happens....
only there will i b an illusion trapped in time....
only then...
wishing;
08:19
Saturday, February 03, 2007
"i m nothing more than an illusion trapped in time
right now your standing right in front of me
even if you turn into an illusion once more,
in this place where i can reach out to you,
even if its for awhile,
let it last as long as possible"
i think its a nice erm...
poem???
haha very touching leh...
or atleast that's wad i think...
haha....
anyway....
gg out later....
all e way to jurong to have fun...
haha....
after that donno wads gg on...
haha....
nth to do than i come bac to slp lor....
LOL...
1 more week 2 go...
den rasQ's heat cycle will end....
den she can slp in my room le...
=)
wahahahaha....
i nidda buy doggie shampoo n food for her le...
zZz...
nidda go shop for it tml ba...
haha...
if i got e time...
wishing;
12:05
Friday, February 02, 2007
i donno wan say i very easily annoyed 2day...
or 2 say tat it is annoying....
wadeva is it la....
doesnt matter much 2day...
gg see e bbq pit ok a not....
haha...
i nid go town council also....
lolx....
got so many things 2 do....
anyway...
tml sat le...
tiring week...
haha...
hope can rest....
oh yeah...
went library juz now....
got piano...
played the electronic 1...
so plastic feel man...
don like....
e upright piano got people used....
zZz....
oh yeah 1 more thing....
i blanked out during presentation....
have no freaking idea wad i said while presenting....
lolx...
don even noe if i make sense at all....
wahhahaha....
wishing;
13:55
