Sunday, July 09, 2006
it got me thinking....
m i subjected 2 living as a bassoon in band???
been in band as a bassoonist for 4 years...
my existence was nil...
practically i was thr tats y i m thr....
not coz i m neeeded....
not coz e bassoon is needed...
not coz its an important member in e band....
even e extinction of e bassoon didnt matter...
until e last minute...
m i subjected 2 tat???
i m tired of zoe...
i really m...
if zoe is meant to b like e bassoonist i hav been...
i rather die...
even if i walk away on e spot...
e conductor wouldnt noticed...
even if i play a wrong note....
no 1 can hear it...
is this wad my life is like???
only once in a while e bassoon has solo...
n even den....
if i m not a gd player...
e conductor would scream at me....
m i suppose 2 b like tat???
i think my solo has come n go...
this time...
if i did a gd job...
only e music can tell...
e conductor has yet to a final verdict on my performance...
but i noe ppl r pressuring me 2 play e right music...
i can feel e ppl wanting me 2 get thru e music...
however e music has rejected me...
btw...
my solo piece started on march 16....
n ended beginning may
wishing;
22:16
