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Monday, June 06, 2005

i never really realise tis until 2day..... life is a lot like music..... both r not always happy. nor r they always sad or angry or any other emotion....yeah sure there r diff kinds of music.....but it potrait a lot of humans..... or atleast about the world we r living in........ perhaps its bcoz we were e 1 hu wrote music but ...... haiz...... donno wad 2 say le........
every1 noes tat in music onbeat is very important compared 2 offbeat..... onbeats r e 1 hu gives a steady tempo.....but offbeat is juz sumthing tat feels in e space n deco e piece.......this is so similar 2 our life..... our onbeats r those major things tat happen around us.....offbeats r things or matters tat we neglect........
for example.....when my mum passed away....tat was e onbeat.....i totally neglected everyother thing tat occured around me.......offbeats such as my studies......didnt really matter 2 me .....its not tat it really does 2 me now........her death has a major impact in me........i totally lost my motivation......
i juz wanted 2 finish sec sch n do well in my O's n go 2 jc coz she wanted me 2 do it......to me, it was like her last wish 4 me 2 fulfill....i didnt do it coz it was 4 me.... i totally wasted 1 n a half yrs of my life 2 figure tat out....i totally dumb....hahaz.....i hope wif me finding it out now sum ammendments can b made on e mistakes i made 4 e pass 18 months.....
i guess i 4got tat there r sum pieces of music tat uses or makes offbeat more important......like jazz...haha....guess i didnt notice tat e music of my life has changed from pop n classical music 2 jazz.... i guess i was too blur n didnt understand jazz tat i fell into e trap...hahaz....

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